all images in this post are from pinterest yay i own none
hi. This post is pretty much unplanned and also very improvised. I’m not very sure yet what i’m about to write. but what i do know is that this afternoon i was scrolling through pinterest and i saw pictures of humans and lately i’ve been noticing just how pretty people are and i guess i just want to make an appreciation post for that. Continue reading “people are so god damn beautiful”
hi lovies, it’s been a while again!
a few days ago, a girl came up to me. i had always looked up to her, at how easily she talked to everyone and her amazing laugh and she is just super sweet. she came up to me and asked if i used to be insecure. how i got better at being self confident. it was weird because to me, she really didn’t seem like someone with insecurities. of course, everyone has them, but i tend to forget that. i tend to think that everyone feels so great about themselves and that everyone is in relationships but me and i tend to forget that that is not the case. it’s important to remember that everyone is going through battles that you have no clue about so you should always be as kind as possible, to everyone. even to unkind people, they probably need it most. anyways, i thought i’d write again because writing > all else and because i want to help that girl and everyone else who might need help feeling stronger about themselves and also as a gentle reminder for myself, because yes, most of the time i’m confident lately, but far from always.
(lil disclaimer, when i had the idea to make this post i planned on taking new pictures for it but i can’t find my camera charger lol so these are all old photos)
hi. hellew. happy new year!!!!!!! 2018, january 1st. it’s a monday. a new week, a new year. a perfect opportunity to start things off well. this year, i want my main focus to be self love. i’m getting so much better at it already but i want to improve even more. the first step to start loving yourself, is taking care of yourself. of your magnificent body and glorious soul. of all that is you. so i’m going to help you out a bit and give you some self care ideas.
Continue reading “some self care tips to start 2018 off right”
i get overwhelmed. easily. in both ways, good and bad. i have many ups and downs. i get a dm on instagram with a super sweet message, telling me i inspired that person or a picture of a drawing they made of me, and i start crying.
my mom tells me they saw the person who dumped me like trash on their walk in the forest with her other best friend (that they didn’t dump) and i need to remind myself to breathe so i don’t have a panic attack. i need to run upstairs. be alone. cry. isolate. why am i so sensitive? it’s so easy to let a clean room transform into a mess but it’s so fucking hard to put myself to clean the mess up again.
it’s very tiring sometimes to feel so much. so deeply. to cope with intense emotions 24/7.
maybe that’s why i love reading so much. reading is so easy. it’s an alternative universe. the characters have a life and your own problems do not exist in that world. it’s a gasp of air to hide in another world. snuggle down, only the blankets, the fairylights, the rain tickling the window and my book and me. a world without any pressure or problems that are mine. you can read about things and fantasize even though they might never happen to you. it’s so soft in my books.
the new year’s almost here. woah. i think 2017 has been the weirdest and hardest and most beautifulest and most horrendous year in my life so far. tons of ups and downs. i really hope that 2018 is going to be just as beautiful or better, and preferably a bit let horrendous. maybe a bit more balanced. that would be a breath of fresh air, i’m sighing writing this. last year i wrote a list of things i wanted to do this year and i also reflected on that in my last post, so i am now going to write another list for the upcoming year, to set some goals for myself, to create hope and excitement for the 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8760 hours that are to come.
hi. wow. this is weird.
maybe you noticed. it’s been a while. my last blogpost was published three and a half, almost four months ago. in those months, my words have found their way out of my brain either through instagram captions, through texts at my (ex?) best friend or through a pen and little notebooks. lately i’ve emptied pens at an incredibly high speed. i wasn’t safe anywhere but my diary, and the thoughts needed to get out of my brain. they had to get out, to transform into sentences to clear the messy chaos or chaotic mess that is my head.