(lil disclaimer, when i had the idea to make this post i planned on taking new pictures for it but i can’t find my camera charger lol so these are all old photos)
hi. hellew. happy new year!!!!!!! 2018, january 1st. it’s a monday. a new week, a new year. a perfect opportunity to start things off well. this year, i want my main focus to be self love. i’m getting so much better at it already but i want to improve even more. the first step to start loving yourself, is taking care of yourself. of your magnificent body and glorious soul. of all that is you. so i’m going to help you out a bit and give you some self care ideas.
Continue reading “some self care tips to start 2018 off right”
i get overwhelmed. easily. in both ways, good and bad. i have many ups and downs. i get a dm on instagram with a super sweet message, telling me i inspired that person or a picture of a drawing they made of me, and i start crying.
my mom tells me they saw the person who dumped me like trash on their walk in the forest with her other best friend (that they didn’t dump) and i need to remind myself to breathe so i don’t have a panic attack. i need to run upstairs. be alone. cry. isolate. why am i so sensitive? it’s so easy to let a clean room transform into a mess but it’s so fucking hard to put myself to clean the mess up again.
it’s very tiring sometimes to feel so much. so deeply. to cope with intense emotions 24/7.
maybe that’s why i love reading so much. reading is so easy. it’s an alternative universe. the characters have a life and your own problems do not exist in that world. it’s a gasp of air to hide in another world. snuggle down, only the blankets, the fairylights, the rain tickling the window and my book and me. a world without any pressure or problems that are mine. you can read about things and fantasize even though they might never happen to you. it’s so soft in my books.
Continue reading “the last three books i read and why i loved them so much”
the new year’s almost here. woah. i think 2017 has been the weirdest and hardest and most beautifulest and most horrendous year in my life so far. tons of ups and downs. i really hope that 2018 is going to be just as beautiful or better, and preferably a bit let horrendous. maybe a bit more balanced. that would be a breath of fresh air, i’m sighing writing this. last year i wrote a list of things i wanted to do this year and i also reflected on that in my last post, so i am now going to write another list for the upcoming year, to set some goals for myself, to create hope and excitement for the 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8760 hours that are to come.
Continue reading “write and write and write.”
hi. wow. this is weird.
maybe you noticed. it’s been a while. my last blogpost was published three and a half, almost four months ago. in those months, my words have found their way out of my brain either through instagram captions, through texts at my (ex?) best friend or through a pen and little notebooks. lately i’ve emptied pens at an incredibly high speed. i wasn’t safe anywhere but my diary, and the thoughts needed to get out of my brain. they had to get out, to transform into sentences to clear the messy chaos or chaotic mess that is my head.
Continue reading “hiya i’m back at it again”
hi my cool blog-friends.
you may have noticed, it’s been a while since i showed up on my little website. a few months, actually. i used to post way more often on here. why? what was the reason of my absence? was it laziness? lack of time, motivation? probably a mixture of all those. it wasn’t the lack of ideas in any case, i had enough of those. i just focused more on youtube, instagram, friendships, myself. i posted a lot of pictures, a few videos, went on holidays with my family and on a weekend with my best friend, went to two festivals (i vlogged both but only edited the first one yet) and i worked the whole month of august. i worked in the retirement home and also got attached to lots of old people (hA).
during these months, i learned a lot. probably more than i learn at school. i believe the world and real life are the best teachers. so i’m gonna tell you about some things i learned this summer. Continue reading “some things i learned this summer”
☁ nature. the sun passionately but gently kissing my cheeks and the rain flowing over my face, flushing away my regrets.. the wind gently yet fiercely blowing through my window while i’m in my bed, cozily reading under my protecting blankets and being in another world. the grass tickling me between my bare toes. birds singing and thunder cracking.
☁photography and film. the fact that i have the ability to capture moments for ever. and share them with the world. Continue reading “a few things i’m grateful for”
Friendship. It’s not something to take for granted, because real friends are very rare and it’s not esy to find them. I know what I’m talking about. I’ve been left and excluded out of groups often enough. It’s only this schoolyear that I’ve found my best friends in the world. I already knew some of them before, but this year I became really close with them. I absolutely adore my friends and I am going to give you some tips to find your squad. People who value who you are. Continue reading “friendship is precious ♡ “